There's nothin right or wrong........

It was a week of events which I will never forget for the rest of my life.........

When it went out of control, I couldnt remember what was happening, it feels like a roller coaster ride and when it ends, i realised my car was lying on its side, it got tumble down.......first thing I know i gotta get out of it, i'm glad i was conscious, a passerby came and help to pull me out.......everything just happens too fast, my mind was blank, for the first time I was really scare and panic, my first thought was to call him...............Dorothy and her dad came after they got my call and rush me to the nearest medical centre as there were blood all over my right arm but lucky those are very superficial cuts........and then again i see my car gettin towed away, i didnt even have the courage to take a good last look at it. It was few days of trauma with nightmares and recollection of the moment when it happen.....I couldnt sleep well, I felt vulnerable and helpless.........but I'm truly grateful that I'm still alive as the accident could have really gone worst, it will always be a lesson to remember.

When children grew up, someday they will leave their parents, that is a saying which i've heard from small but yesterday what i've seen is a mother who couldn't bear to see her son leave her after staying together for more than 50 years. It was disheartening to see Dad breaking the news about moving out to a new house to Gran, she was calm at first but I can see from her eyes that she is holding it back.........she finally breakdown and i followed her to her room, I dont know what to say to her.......for some reason I was angry with Mum and Dad but then I respect their decision as they are my parents. Gran was holding my hands so tightly and I can see her suffering inside yet all I could do is ask her not to be sad as we are still here........I know i told a lie, somehow it is never the same after getting used to stay under the same roof for more than 50 yrs with uncle, auntie and cousins, all she ever wanted is a big happy family together......

I hated this feeling, i hate goodbyes, i hated when people leave, I hate to see my Gran so sad.........I truly understand how she felt and then I remember the day when you leave, u told me u're still here but i know it will never be the same anymore. Everyday i hope that the door might open and you came in tellin me you're home and I see the weary face on you after work but you always gives me back a smile which lightens up my day.........i'm still as foolish it seems.

Before I leave for KL, Gran was telling me our room will remain as the way it was so that we can come back whenever we wanted or visit her.....tears flow down from her eyes.

From then on, i promised myself that I must try my best not to break people's heart by leaving them.......

When problems come, they come altogether, i hope i can overcome all these, it just seems nothing good happens and its getting worst, gotta be more optimistic about the things that will come and I seriously hope this year ends as soon as it can. I know it will be a good 2011 ahead for me.........I sincerely wish for it.

Everything happens for a reason......