What is the meaning of happiness?

Well, its been so long since the last time i write somethin here. Life just goes on as usual, nothing special, nothin particular, nothin much, nothin extraordinary........

Time juz passes so fast without even u realising it, even when u do, u found that so many things that u wanted to do were never fulfilled. In another 2 months i'll be adding another digit to my age and in another 5 yrs I'll be hitting the 30s, juz scares me sometimes. Lots have been goin on my mind; future prospect, new allocation, life upgrades, getting rich....seemingly neverending, nevertheless i hope to achieve them by 30. By the end of the year though, its time for some serious decision making, its about time to change a new working environment, a direction which is closer to what I believe are my interests and that i will be happy doin it (of course it must pay well haha).

Is that the source of happiness i ask myself? Its been a tough 5 months but its goin quite well, thanx to my great buddies Don Vicious and Mrs L, i've been giving u ppl nothin but my woes and troubles but thanx again for being there while going thru this phase. There used to be something which i so look forward seeing evryday, it juz cheers me up to have it by my side, to be there for you when u need it, to share your joy and sorrow......but now that's just missing, living each day juz to get it over, sometimes i wonder what am i realli doing with my life and what do i expect out of it.......

Really such a long time I haven been happy anymore, well now i dunno what happy means or feels, well of course there are great moments that i enjoy with friends, families and colleagues but at the end of the day, inside i'm juz a sad man...........i tink i shud stop being emo out of nowhere now, anyhow i believe one day i will find that happiness, really need to move on with life, I thought i'm ready but things just dwell longer than I expected.........

I shall end this post with a song that have such strong feelings and emotions in it, Fish performed it beautifully........

仿佛上一分钟　你还陪在我左右　还以为我们会开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空　却模糊了我们的脸孔　哼过的歌到底是什么内容

仿佛已经自由　下一刻我变成风　吹过你的领空　差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶　我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂　却担心言不由衷

我们都接受　一定是彼此不够成熟　在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实得过了头　不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头　把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动　能记得多久